What makes your soul shine?!

So as of right now I am a stay at home mom. I say for now because who knows where my journey will take me, and I know all too well how quickly it can change. In all of the crazy that is my life (and believe me I’m not underselling the crazy) sometimes my soul just needs a break. Do you know what I mean? Does your soul ever just need a break from all of the crazy? If it does then what makes your soul shine? What gives you that inner peace? For me its gardening, all kinds of it and anything related to it.

I have struggled for years trying to find a “hobby” trying to figure out what I’m passionate about and enjoy doing. I never use to understand how people can get so involved in a craft or hobby and even in collectable stuff. How can people feel so strongly about something they are doing or a craft they are working on. I tried over and over again to find myself hobbies. I’ve done sewing, I’ve made blankets and a few other things. I have tried jewelry making, wood burning, cross stitching and other little crafts. I was never able to just really get obsessed about any of that. I liked doing it all but not like I thought I would. I do however like that I can make a baby blanket for a gift if I want to, or make some pieces of jewelry or make things a little different by wood burning on them. I’m just not passionate about those things.

I was starting to give up thinking I wasnt meant to have something that I love to do so much (a side from being a mom of course). I have been gardening for quite a few years now but it finally kicked in that gardening is what i am passionate about. I have a little greenhouse about the size of a car this year. It’s nothing fancy, it belonged to my husbands grandma. She decided she didnt want to use it this year so she gave it to us. I was working in it the other day, and it was very nice inside my greenhouse bc it was a little breezy outside and it made it perfect. That’s when I figured out what really makes my soul shine!

I had this sense of peace planting my seeds and figuring out what I wanted to do next or what I wanted to plant where. I admit I am still a beginner but I have come a very long way. That little greenhouse helped me realize how much joy I get out of growing things. I love it all, even the hard unpleasant parts. I want to have our own little family farm greenhouse and I feel like it’s a great possibility. I am passionate about growing. I love to walk past things I’m growing and see how it’s changed from the week or even a day before. I learn something new about plants and what to do with them each year. I’ll admit that I am very glad I hadn’t given up on gardening because it actually took some time to realize how much it means to me.

If you would have asked me probably 15 to 20 years ago if I thought I would enjoy planting things so much I dont think I would’ve believed it. As time has went on though it has become clear that it is my calling. My grandmother passed almost a year ago now and she loved growing things and canning what she grew. I think deep down she is the reason I love it so much. I think this past year with out her has helped me realize my passion for it though.

So that is what makes my soul shine. What gives me inner peace. So dont give up if you havent found what makes your soul shine because it may be right in front of you but you just dont know it yet.

Shine BRIGHT my lovelies!!